Guest Book

This is Tyler Ogle , and it has just been made clear to me through a PM that some people think that I just used you guys to get gifts such as the computer and music. When I sold my computer to get my treatments for my disease, a member called me up and asked me if the members could get together and somehow furnish me with one. I said no, I didn't want that. I don't take charity. The member would not take no for an answer. A computer was sent to me as a very nice gesture. I was very grateful as you all know. I didn't even have the money to send it back to where it came. I have put close to $300 dollars into it to keep it running. This was not anyone's fault, just fate. It put quite a hardship on my family. Money was sent to me by Tony, even though I asked him to return it. He said that would be too large a task for him to perform. So he sent me a check for around $150 and I believe $250. Hemlock sent me $50 out of the goodness of his heart which enabled me to get a pair of glasses. I felt ashamed but grateful and told everyone that. I am dirt poor. I have no money in the bank, cannot pay my bills, and rent a little house. However I never expected anything from anybody. Just friendship and somepne to talk to because I am home-bound. My health is failing, my treatments make me sick, I have suffered from depression all my life, inherited from my mother who used to lock herself in the basement for weeks at a time when I was just a boy. I also have very low self-esteem, but one thing I do have is the best wife in the world. The only reason I am alive. I tried to kill myself when I was 29. Right after I found out about my disease. I am a mess. But one thing I am not is a moocher. I did not ask for one thing materially from anyone on here. Hell, I just liked the ABB. So those of you who laugh behind my back, you can laugh even harder now. Thank you for making me feel even lower than the lowest moment in my life. All I have is a wife that loves me and grandchildren who tell me they love me too. To those who don't laugh or talk trash about me, thank you from the bottom of my heart. You are what this website should be about. I think the best thing to do is give the computer to charity. My wife agrees. I don't need one anyway.